I'm so grateful that it's finally springtime!
Here in North Carolina, we have to delay our spring cleaning a little bit until after the onslaught of pollen has passed. Now that most of the pollen is gone, we can open the windows, let in the fresh air, and get down to some serious cleaning.
But as much as I love letting in the fresh breezes, I've discovered that my cleaning sprees only make things seem fresh for a little while. Very soon things are back to looking like they need to be "spring-cleaned" all over again.
Determined to do things differently this year, I thought long and hard about what really needed to happen in my house. My husband and I sat down and talked honestly about it. That was a hard conversation for me, for I tend to feel ashamed and guilty when the state of my house isn't what I think it should be. But with God's help and my husband's input I realized that our home was never going to look and feel the way I wanted unless I was willing to take the critical step of getting rid of stuff.
There was no way I could clean up our home until I had cleaned out our home.
When faced with a daunting task, my tendency is to get overwhelmed, which leads to paralysis. Sometimes I can't see what I should do first, so I don't do anything at all.
The solution I found this time wasn't perfect, but it worked for me: I rented a dumpster.
There was no way I was going to be able to de-clutter our home without some way to dispose of the things that were no longer useful. Useful items I could donate to thrift stores, which of course I did. But there were so many items poked here and there that were simply of no value whatsoever. Like it or not, those items were trash.
Renting a dumpster allowed me to
- do a massive cleanout all at once (I had the dumpster for two weeks only)
- get rid of items of all sizes and shapes
- worry less about the trash, knowing that part of the fee I paid was to lessen the environmental impact of disposal
Always before when I attempted to clean out clutter, I asked myself this question: "What if I need this?" But all too easily that question led to my keeping things just in case I might need them.
This time, I asked a different question. Instead of "What if I need this?" I asked myself, "What will I do if I need this?"
Asking this question forced me to look at things more honestly. I realized that many things I might need in the future I could simply borrow or rent if the need arose. Or I could--surprise--do without them entirely!
Then I was free to keep the things I need and the things I value most--and let go of the rest.
The unexpected blessing of this exercise was realizing anew that I can trust God to meet my needs. Without admitting or even realizing it, I had been putting my faith in holding onto possessions. My old "What if I need this?" question enabled me to continue thinking that I would have to meet my own needs. It enabled me to operate under the delusion that I can and must meet my own needs.
The truth, of course, is that God provides what we need. Every good and perfect gift is from above, after all. And one of the amazing ways that God provides is by giving us one another--family and friends and neighbors who help one another. So what if I do need something? One way or another, God will provide.
You know what was most wonderful about renting that dumpster? This sight:
My useless clutter was hauled away, never to be seen again.
Now to open the windows--of my house and of my soul--and let the spring breezes blow!
How about you? Are you doing some spring cleaning? Do you need to clean out before you can clean up?
I'm joining these lovely parties:
Tell His Story with Jennifer Dukes Lee
Coffee for Your Heart with Holley Gerth
Inspire Me Tuesday with Marty at A Stroll Thru Life